Kumusta po ako PAMILIA!!! :-)
Wow.. can't believe I just endured my third week here in the MTC. I already feel like I've been here FOREVER!!! Seriously... ha ha. Thank you ALL that have sent me letters. I love and cherish them all. They're such great pick-me-ups :-) Salamat po!
This week was probably the hardest week here so far.
Started off with just a lot of drama with the other companionship and it was sort of causing a ton of awkward contention in our District. My kasama ko and I have HINDI PROBLEMAS (No Problems). Thank goodness, but have been praying for them and help them out as best we can.
My companion and I also had a our worst lesson yet :-( First of all, we felt so unprepared because we were going first and second, when we got in there... WE FORGOT TO PRAY! Ughhhh. I was so upset. We taught our main teacher Brothere Kaka and literally got cut off and sort of kicked out. He then took us to another room to evaluate us in almost a chastising way. I felt like crying. He was especially coming at me and didn't ask my companion about anything. I was confused, but I realized that he knew that I wasn't satisfied with the lesson and the investigator could feel that too. He talked to us about how we need to better listen to the spirit. We weren't focusing on the needs of the investigator at all because we were so nervous and worried about ourselves and didn't even realize that we needed to help the investigator come unto Christ.
This thought kept coming to me through out the week. To be more in tune with the spirit. I wanted to give a lesson that was totally inspired by the Lord, but that wouldn't happen unless I allowed it to. Brother Kaka then gave probably THE BEST LESSON he ever had done this week.
He talked about how the espiritu santo (Holy Ghost) can bring something UNTO your heart, but it's you who has to accept it to be able to receive it INTO your heart. I never thought of it this way. He then proceeded to ask us, "What if the Holy Ghost is always there for you in times of trouble and God has answered every single prayer you have asked--and you don't heed to it's promptings to accept the blessing or anwer?" It is up to us to do our part in meeting Him half way. You have to DO SOMETHING to MAKE SOMETHING HAPPEN. He related this to personal revelation and how we have to be spiritually aware of what the Lord wants us to do, then we do it, and he takes care of the rest. It's an incredible thought and has been my motivation for the week.
Literally the next day when we had to teach another investigator, Sis. Swanson and I gave THE BEST LESSON WE EVER HAVE IN THE MTC THUS FAR. Sis Swanson asked me while we were planning that she felt impressed to ask me to sing for this lesson. Everyone knows I like to sing, and she's heard me a little bit from choir, so she asked me to sing the Baptism Song since it was our lesson for that day. I told her I didn't want to and she kept bugging me about it the whole day til we were about to go teach! I finally told her FINE, I will. I knew in my heart that the Lord wanted me to use my talents to convert. It's the best way for me to feel the spirit--so maybe the investigator would. We went in there, said a prayer, and I asked him if it was alright if I started off with a song. I explained to him in my broken Tagalog what it was about and said, "I know you won't be able to understand all the lyrics to the song...but I hope you will be able to feel what I am trying to tell you." I felt the spirit so strongly in that song! It felt good to sing again! My first solo in a long time! I opened my eyes to see the investigator (another teacher) almost in tears. I could tell the spirit was so strong in that room and I almost cried after I was done and bore my testimony to him. When we were done, my kasama ko and I just were so happy for the success of this lesson from the one the day before. It was a testimony to me that through personal revelation and calling upon the Lord to help us that we were able to do what he wanted us to. Yay!
This week was just such a spiritually strong week and it got even better! For the Tuesday Devotional, guess who came and spoke to us---PRESIDENT RUSSEL M. NELSON!!! All of us in the choir were so stoked! It was so secretive, he actually had to inform us about five minutes before it even started. Apparently tons of people come when they find out who the speaker is so they kept it on the down low. Oh, and guess what song we sang too?! BE STILL MY SOUL. Which was perfect for all of us there in the MTC because it's always a great, constant reminder to just take a breath and know that everything will be okay....and to chill out because Pres. Nelson will be in the room watching us all sing in about t minus 2 minutes. No big deal.
When he came into the room, we all stood up and it felt like we entered a new level of spiritual. We were still singing some prelude music, the song being "Teach Me to Walk in the Light". Everyone (even me) got super emotional watching him come in and us singing that. It was just so wonderful to be able to sing that and witness an apostle of God!
He and his wife talked. I loved how she talked about this church not being a Utah-Based church, but a HEAVEN-BASED church. Love that.
Pres. Nelson gave a great analogy and compared us missionaries and members of the church to being Epistles of Jesus Christ. He told us all that we must always have the Doctrine of Christ written on our hearts. Everyday we will be read and shared throughout the world. We must always evoke the light of Christ. His talk was so inspiring and amazing! Loved it all!!
Well, I have to go--wish there was more time, but there isn't! Sorry! I'll try to send letters or something! Thanks for all the support and love, it means so much to me! Til next time(: